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Eating Disorder Q&A: July 27th, 2014


I am SUPER excited I got to do this Q&A video because these are honestly my favorite kind of video to do. In this Eating Disorder Q&A video I discuss the importance of inpatient care for adults (18+) with eating disorders, anxiety issues and how I attempt to cope with them, as well as a few personal things. I hope you enjoy this video and don’t forget to subscribe! :)

If you have any video topic suggestions or questions you would like me to answer, please comment below or click the CONTACT ME tab and write me a message :)

Do Parents Cause Eating Disorders?

For a very long time parents have been blamed for their child’s eating disorder. Clinicians working with eating disorder patients regularly performed “parentectomies” and made it a point to limit the parent’s involvement in their child’s treatment. Fortunately today physicians, psychologists, and dietitians are realizing the importance of involving families in eating disorder treatment. But there are still those health professionals out there who would rather stick with their old school knowledge of anorexia nervosa, bulimia nervosa, and other eating disorders instead of adapting to using FBT (family-based therapy). I also believe that another reason why the belief that “parents cause eating disorder” lives on is because ED sufferers feel the need to make sense of why they got such a merciless brain disorder. By blaming their parents for the development of their eating disorder, the ED patient removes the blame they cast upon themselves for developing the illness.

Want to find out MORE about eating disorder genetics? Check out these sites!

Want to find out more about the neurobiology of eating disoders? Read this!


Also, please don’t forget I am doing a Q&A video this week and I would LOVE if you would ask me your questions in the comment box below :) No question is off limits :)

A Day of Laughter, Smiles, and Giving Back

I hate to say this, but it most of the times when I compose a blog post, the post usually paints a picture of an event that has caused me tons of internal anguish. Believe it or not though, today’s entry on yesterday’s (Sunday’s) experiences  is not going to be one laden with sorrow or anger. Instead, I am excited to announce, it is going to overflowing with feelings of absolute happiness – something that I haven’t truly felt in such a long time.

Sunday started off a little bit rocky. I was tossing and turning throughout the night and struggled to get even a short burst of sleep. Once the sun peaked it’s head above the trees, my eyes felt heavy and my brain felt extremely foggy due to me suffering from this acute form of sleep deprivation.  All I wanted to do was stay in bed and attempt to make up for the sleep I had lost. On any other given day that’s exactly what I would have done, but on Sunday that was not a possibility because I had made a commitment at church. You see, last year I started a ministry at my church called Faithfully Fit. The goal of this ministry is to aid people in developing a healthy body and a healthy mind by educating people about proper nutrition, the importance of exercise, and measures that can be taken to prevent disease.  Now about a week ago, I wrote on the ministry’s Facebook wall that on Sunday I will be giving an informative presentation on carbohydrates.  Many people were rather excited about this presentation and were really counting on me, so when Sunday came around and I hadn’t really gotten any sleep, I could not just cancel the presentation so I would be able to get some extra shut eye. That would be irresponsible of me to do so and I just couldn’t bare to have that on my conscience.

So I dragged myself to my closet, put on my orange dress, brushed the crazy mess I call my hair, and made my way to church.

After my dad (he’s actually the church’s pastor) finished his sermon, I made my way into the church library to set up my presentation. I plugged in a computer to the TV so  I could show my Google Doc presentation (which is basically like PowerPoint), I almost obsessively arranged the high-fiber granola bars I was going to handout to those who showed up, and I diligently organized my informative pamphlets on the functions and benefits of the very misunderstood macronutrient the carbohydrate.  Once everything was in order people began to show up. First it was only two, then suddenly it was four, and in just a matter of minutes I had 10 people in the room wanting to listen to what I had to say.  I was honestly amazed with how many people were there because I didn’t really have very high hopes. The coolest thing was knowing each and every single person in the church library WANTED to be there and they WANTED to hear what I had to say. I can’t describe in words how good that felt.

Throughout the presentation I was smiling, cracking jokes, and getting everyone to laugh.  For the 40 minutes I presented, I finally felt like I was “old me” again – the one who didn’t let her anxiety or eating disorder rule her life.  Once my presentation ended, everyone clapped and told me I was very gifted, intelligent, and entertaining speaker.  These compliments made me feel on top of the world, but I think what made me feel even more happy was the fact that I gave back. I took the time to educate people about making healthy decisions – a skill that seems to have been lost in our modern, westernized culture.

What’s MinnieMaud?

MinnieMaud is a type of non-evidence based treatment protocol for those suffering from a restrictive eating disorders, like anorexia nervosa. Because of it’s do-it-yourself style, I think many eating disorder sufferers find it quite appealing. No one wants to go into a treatment center and lose complete control over their food intake, so when folks hear of the MinnieMaud option, they seem very attracted to it. Unfortunately, MinnieMaud is probably not your best option when it comes to recovery from anorexia or any other form of restrictive eating disorder. Why is that? Well you will just have to watch this video as well as part 2 to find out! :) :) :)

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Before I let you guys go, I wanted to thank you guys for watching and let you guys know that all of you really mean a lot to me. To know that dozens of  people actually want to hear my voice is an absolutely amazing feeling. Because you guys give me so much, I want to make sure the content in my topic videos are informative, educational, and of course helpful.  Please if you have a moment  to fill out the form below with your questions and/or video suggestions.  By filling out this form, I will be able to make videos that can better help you or your loved one on their journey to recovery or – for those of you who don’t have EDs – get a better understanding on how eating disorders  effect the lives of many people around the world.

My Eating Disorder and My First Period

The One Thing I Wish EVERYONE Knew about Eating Disorders


If only more people knew this . . .


It happened yesterday afternoon.  I thought I just had diarrhea (something that seems to occur quite often due to my wonderful IBS), but as I sat on that god damn porcelain thrown of mine something felt . . . off.  As I sat up, I looked at the contents that swam in the toilet’s waters and I felt my heart pound hard beneath the layer of hideous fat that surrounds my chest.  In the toilet  I saw my threads of bright red lacing my stool.

For goodness sake, I thought I was bleeding somewhere in my GI system.  I was ready to scream for my father and beg him to get me to the ER. I mean, it was not just a few streaks of blood guys, IT WAS A TON!!!!!!!!! YES, A TON!!!!!!!! I thought I was going to bleed out or something.

But then I looked down at my pair of stripped blue panties and to my horror, they were stained a dark brown and had revolting metallic odor. Just then everything clicked . . . I had just had my first period.   It was like I was trapped in my worst nightmare.

Having my period not only represented my entrance into womanhood, it also represented that my weight was . . . (I hate to say it) . . . healthy.   Oh and you know what that means . . . I AM FAT. BEING HEALTHY MEANS I AM FAT. No longer am I abnormally skinny. No longer am I a good anorexic. I am now officially a disgusting bitch and I despise myself with every fat-laden ounce of my body.

I am in such a dark place right now and I wish I could locked myself in my room and NEVER EVER face the world again.

Ana seems like my only choice right now. . .  and you know what, if I want to be beautiful, it probably is.


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