Going to College with an Eating Disorder: The Door’s Wide Open

“Be empty of worrying.

Think of who created thought!

Why do you stay in prison

when the door is so wide open?”


While many incoming college freshman spent their summers making lasting memories with the friends and family they would soon leave behind, I spent mine locked in a prison of great anxiety. The idea of going to college and beginning to write a new chapter in my life was something that absolutely horrified me. It seemed like every waking hour of the day, my mind was tormented with a slew of “what-ifs”.

What if my professors are heartless graders, giving even the brightest of pupils a soul-crushing mark?

What if my roommates are inconsiderate party-animals, obnoxiously making noise into the wee hours of the morning?

What if, despite my best efforts, I am unsuccessful?


But now that move-in day is right around the corner, I am slowly beginning to walk out of the mental prison I have held myself captive in for all these months.  Jalāl ad-Dīn Muhammad Rūmī, the great Islamic scholar and poet, said, “Why do you stay in prison when the door is so wide open.”  I now realize that for me college is that  “open door” that  Rūmī spoke of.  By going to college, I will finally be able to freely pursue my interests and walk on the beautiful path of self-discovery. I hope . . . no scratch that . . .I KNOW that the knowledge I will obtain during my years in college will allow me to give back to the eating disorder community. Maybe I will build the intellectual foundation I need to conduct ground-breaking research into the neurobiology of eating disorders or to create a revoluntionary treatment protocol that saves thousands of lives.

Whatever I decide to do or become, I know it will be great.

There’s no question about that anymore🙂


Eating Disorder Recovery // The BEST Meals!

Have an eating disorder? In need of some NUTRITIOUS and QUICK entree ideas? Look no further because in this video I will share with you my TOP THREE pro-recovery entrees that are so easy to prepare, all you need is a microwave!  I also calculated the exchange values for each nutritious pro-recovery entree so you can easily fit it into your eating disorder recovery meal plan!

To learn more about the food exchange system and how you can make your own exchange-based meal plan, check out this one of my blog posts http://wp.me/p3LqYN-tZ

Wondering where you can find some of these amazing pro-recovery entrees?  Check out these sites!

Quorn Naked Chicken Cutlets: http://www.quorn.us/store-locator/

GardenLites Souffles: http://www.gardenlites.com/stores/

Amy’s Quinoa and Black Bean Frozen Meal: http://www.amys.com/buy/store-locator

The BEST Snacks for Eating Disorder Recovery

Trying to recover from anorexia, bulimia, or another type of eating disorder? Hunting for some healthy nutrient-dense snack suggestions for your eating disorder recovery meal plan? Look no further! In this video, I will share with you my TOP THREE PRO-RECOVERY SNACKS!

Links to Buy Snacks on Amazon
Svelte Shakes: https://www.amazon.com/CalNaturale-Svelte-Organic-Protein-Variety/dp/B00MHTDBC6/ref=sr_1_3_a_it?ie=UTF8&qid=1470419278&sr=8-3&keywords=svelte

Quest Bars: https://www.amazon.com/Quest-Nutrition-Variety-Bundle-piece/dp/B00FY0TCZK/ref=sr_1_4_a_it?ie=UTF8&qid=1470419350&sr=8-4&keywords=quest+bars

Justin’s Nut Butters: https://www.amazon.com/Justins-Chocolate-Hazelnut-Butter-Squeeze/dp/B00II0XHZO/ref=sr_1_11_a_it?ie=UTF8&qid=1470419383&sr=8-11&keywords=justin+nut+butter+packets

An Anorexic Abroad: How I Ate Overseas

Have an eating disorder? Going on a trip overseas and worried about how the whole eating situation will work out? Don’t worry, because this video has you covered!  After going on my trip to Ireland and France, I have quite a few tips on how you can handle the foreign food scene while abroad.

I absolutely LOVE hearing from you guys, so PLEASE don’t hesitate to write your feedback, questions, and video suggestions down in the comment box!

An Anorexic Abroad: Q&A about my Adventures Overseas

Hi Everyone!
You guys had some awesome questions about my trip to Ireland and France so in this video I answer some of them. Check your YouTube Saturday afternoon for my next video on what I ate while abroad!

NEW Vlog!: My Life-changing Trip to Europe

Not too long ago I did something I never thought I would be able to do as an eating disorder sufferer – step on a jet plane and go overseas. Since I was little, I had always longed to set foot in another country and immerse myself in a new culture, but my struggles with anorexia nervosa kept holding me back. Finally, I decided that I was sick and tired of my eating disorder keeping me from achieving this long-held dream of mine and on May 15th, I left with my dad for Europe.

In this video, you’ll get to see just some of my many foreign adventures! If you have any questions about my trip and how that all worked with my eating disorder, please COMMENT below. Also don’t forget to subscribe!