“Let your hopes, not your hurts shape your future.” ~ Robert Schuller
If you guys haven’t noticed, the past couple of months have been rough for me and that emotional turmoil has made many of my most recent blog posts take a toxic turn. As I look back at my past posts, I realize so many of the sentences I have conceived leave the metallic taste of arsenic in one’s mouth. Though these posts only contain small doses of this literary form of arsenic, we all know how arsenic works. Each dose of this life threatening poison accumulates in the body until one day when the sky is painted with black storm clouds and the sun fails to shine, the body shuts down.
Though literary arsenic does not destroy your body, it does destroy The more you read poisonous posts that are laden with sorrow and anger, the more it affects you emotionally. Haven’t you realized that when you read posts that bleed with the blood of psychological agony, you almost feel like you too are bleeding that blood? With each word you read, you feel the intense stabbing pain of the post’s author as if it were your own.
The recent posts and videos I have published have been harmful and I now realize that. My blog is entitled “Forever Going Forward” and as of late, I honestly have not moved a single step in that direction. If anything, I have taken many steps backwards and allowed my eating disorder, depression, anger, and anxiety to take full reign of my mind once again. I no longer want my posts to be tainted with a toxin that robs one’s soul of happiness and joy. I want my blog to be a beacon of light in the eating disorder community. A place that raises awareness about eating disorders, helps family members or ED sufferers find helpful resources, and to encourage ED sufferers to get the treatment they not only require but also deserve.
So from this point on there will be a few positive changes in my blog and here’s a list of them.
- If I am struggling and a post is rather negative, I will write 3 positive things about my day at the end of the post in order to encourage myself to be more optimistic and to also show people there is always a light in even the darkest of times. Also if I create a YouTube video that is triggering, I will ensure to warn people by putting a disclaimer up on that video(I have been doing that though anyway
- I pledge to try to make more positive, supportive YouTube videos 🙂
- Every Monday I will write a “Remission Resources” blog post that discusses different “pro-remission” resources available. These may include smart-phone apps, websites, books, support groups, treatment centers, etc.
These are currently the three things I have vowed to do. Overtime I will add more things, but these are my goals at the moment and there is no doubt in my mind that I will achieve them with flying colors. Hopefully, these little changes will help me and all of you wonderful people who are reading my blog move forward in life.