No longer could I eat meals comprised of my "safe" foods, eat at the times I preferred, or isolate myself from others. If I wanted to not only survive during this 6 day challenge, I had to let go of my obsession with control and break free from the chains that have been holding me back for so many years.
Nowadays I am beginning to wonder why I even exist. Why couldn't I just have died from my wretched eating disorder? Why didn't my heart just stop? Why didn't my kidney's fail? Why didn't every single internal organ in my body call it quits? Why God? Why? God if you are out there, can't you [...]
Last night I did something I know I shouldn't have done. Before I did it, I knew that I would feel terrible after. I knew I would wish I was never born. I knew I would want to lock myself in my room and cry for hours on end. Yet for some reason, I ignored [...]
Guess what folks . . . .It's Sunday and I think it is the perfect time to make a new video for my YouTube series Living With an Eating Disorder! So my friends I want to know what YOU struggle with on a day to day basis due to your eating disorder. Type your answer [...]
For many people with anorexia nervosa, the disease is not just a diagnosis but a death sentence. 20% of those suffering from this deadly brain disorder will pass away and only 50% will ever be able to say that they have freed themselves from Ana's tight grasp. Though these statistics are extremely disheartening and may [...]
People go into eating disorder treatment for many reasons. Sometimes the parents of a child or adolescent suffering from an ED drag their offspring to a treatment center against their will. Sometimes it is a life-saving court order that results in one's involuntary hospitalization. And sometimes the families of the individual with the ED host [...]
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2Thf5zsmEew Well everybody, I am happy to say I FINALLY made the second video in my new video series Living with an Eating Disorder. For those of you who aren't aware of why I suddenly stopped making my YouTube videos, let me explain to you what happened. When I made my first video in the [...]