Eating Disorder Recovery // The BEST Meals!

Have an eating disorder? In need of some NUTRITIOUS and QUICK entree ideas? Look no further because in this video I will share with you my TOP THREE pro-recovery entrees that are so easy to prepare, all you need is a microwave!  I also calculated the exchange values for each nutritious pro-recovery entree so you can easily fit it into your eating disorder recovery meal plan!

To learn more about the food exchange system and how you can make your own exchange-based meal plan, check out this one of my blog posts http://wp.me/p3LqYN-tZ

Wondering where you can find some of these amazing pro-recovery entrees?  Check out these sites!

Quorn Naked Chicken Cutlets: http://www.quorn.us/store-locator/

GardenLites Souffles: http://www.gardenlites.com/stores/

Amy’s Quinoa and Black Bean Frozen Meal: http://www.amys.com/buy/store-locator

An Anorexic Abroad: Q&A about my Adventures Overseas

Hi Everyone!
You guys had some awesome questions about my trip to Ireland and France so in this video I answer some of them. Check your YouTube Saturday afternoon for my next video on what I ate while abroad!

I NEED YOUR HELP!

Well everyone, I need a little bit of your assistance.

For my math class, we were told to design and administer a survey in order to collect data on something we have interest in. As an eating disorder sufferer for most of my life, I decided to create a survey that allowed me to gain further insight into the potential triggers of anorexia and bulimia.

I ended up designing a survey that looks to see if there is any correlation between GERD (also known as “acid reflux”) and the two main eating disorders – anorexia nervosa and bulimia nervosa. Currently I am in need of more data.  With that being said, if you have been diagnosed with GERD/Acid Reflux, Anorexia, OR Bulimia, please click on the link to my survey and take it. It will literally take you two minutes or even less to complete.  Also, after you take the survey, be sure to share the link with others who have GERD/Acid Reflux, Anorexia, and Bulimia.  The more people who take the survey, the more accurate my findings will be 🙂

Here’s the link: http://goo.gl/forms/GoUyIlqxyP

It’s Eating Disorder Awareness Week!

Well everyone, the time is here! It’s finally Eating Disorder Awareness Week and to start the week off, I made a the Q&A video I promised all of you in my last video.  Hopefully you enjoy it and make sure to write some suggestions in the comment box below for new videos that you want to see or new blog post topics you want to read!

Have a great day everyone!

Eating Disorder Vlog: Relapse

The month of January is usually a month of great excitement. It is the beginning of a new year, of a new start on life. Unfortunately, that was not the case for me.
The month of January was like a heartless militant. It waged war on me and through the use of anxiety-provoking, stress-inducing events, it destroyed me in every battle. Now January is over and it won the war, shattering my emotional well-being and destroying any progress I made in overthrowing the kingdom of my eating disorder.
I hate to admit this but I have relapsed. My eating disorder is beginning to control everything about me and my life and this time, I don’t know how to stop it.

It’s Time to Move Forward

“Let your hopes, not your hurts shape your future.” ~ Robert Schuller

If you guys haven’t noticed, the past couple of months have been rough for me and that emotional turmoil  has made many of my most recent blog posts take a toxic turn. As I look back at my past posts, I realize so many of the sentences I have conceived leave the metallic taste of arsenic in one’s mouth. Though these posts only contain small doses of this literary form of arsenic, we all know how arsenic works. Each dose of this life threatening poison accumulates in the body until one day when the sky is painted with black storm clouds and the sun fails to shine, the body shuts down.

 

Though literary arsenic does not destroy your body, it does destroy The more you read poisonous posts that are laden with sorrow and anger, the more it affects you emotionally. Haven’t you realized that when you read posts that bleed with the blood of psychological agony, you almost feel like you too are bleeding that blood? With each word you read, you feel the intense stabbing pain of the post’s author as if it were your own.

 

The recent posts and videos I have published have been harmful and I now realize that. My blog is entitled “Forever Going Forward” and as of late, I honestly  have not moved a single step in that direction. If anything, I have taken many steps backwards and allowed my eating disorder, depression, anger, and anxiety to take full reign of my mind once again.  I no longer want my posts to be tainted with a toxin that robs one’s soul of happiness and joy.   I want my blog to be a beacon of light in the eating disorder community. A place that raises awareness about eating disorders, helps family members or ED sufferers find helpful resources, and to encourage ED sufferers to get the treatment they not only require but also deserve.

 

So from this point on there will be a few positive changes in my blog and here’s a list of them.

 

  1. If I am struggling and a post is rather negative, I will write 3 positive things about my day at the end of the post in order to encourage myself to be more optimistic and to also show people there is always a light in even the darkest of times.  Also if I create a YouTube video that is triggering, I will ensure to warn people  by putting a disclaimer up on that video(I have been doing that though anyway
  2. I pledge to try to make more positive, supportive YouTube videos 🙂
  3. Every Monday I will write a “Remission Resources” blog post that discusses different “pro-remission” resources available.   These may include smart-phone apps, websites, books, support groups, treatment centers, etc.


These are currently the three things I have vowed to do. Overtime I will add more things, but these are my goals at the moment and there is no doubt in my mind that I will achieve them with flying colors. Hopefully, these little changes will help me and all of you wonderful people who are reading  my blog move forward in life.

I am a Lie

At school, I act happy. I hide my pain, my fears, and my ever increasing self-hatred deep inside my heart so that not even those who know me well will realize my true suffering,  Girls in my charter school tell me I’m confident and brave . . . and to be honest, they couldn’t be more wrong. I guess I can’t blame because they only see one side of me. The side that composes some of the most informative class presentations. The side that stands up for her beliefs and values. The side that once was not even a side – it was who I was.

Whenever I am home, the bad side appears. My smile vanishes from my face and my chapped pink lips form a constant grimace.  My eyes that were once filled with joy become a window peering into my broken soul. The moment I enter my home, I transform into a girl who is stuffed from head to toe with anger and self-loathing. I lash out at my family over stupid things or over nothing at all and I do everything possible to isolate myself from them. Now before you start thinking I am some sort of devilish problem child, I really do wish every moment that I could just act at home like I do at school.  The issue is though, at school I feel like a fake. Like I said, I am hiding everything from most of the people I know  and so when I come home, I take off my costume so that all that emotional and physical pain that is painted all over my body reappears.

Maybe one day things will be different and I could smile without masking my true feelings, but that seems like a long way off. To be honest, sometimes it seems like it will never come true and that my wish of happiness is nothing but one of those silly, worthless dreams of mine.